wait and see

‘you might have to wait for that’ … ‘you may not get every thing you want’ …

the other night I sat down to write out the things I had recently asked God for. things I have been standing on the Word waiting for, which seemed endlessly not to come. I had begun to ponder why things had been at such a long standstill, when I heard the Lord say ‘ye have not because ye ask not …’. It became suddenly clear to me that I had largely been assuming to receive things, like a badly needed job, when I had not actually asked for one. I don’t really know why it is. maybe it’s because one’s faith grows even more when one asks God for something, and when it comes it results in obvious glory to Him. maybe He just likes to be asked. either way, I asked. I asked for a job, with a certain schedule and pay, and I asked for a house with four bedrooms and two baths, on five acres, with a barn for the goats. then I sat down to write out my requests, more for my own benefit, so that I will remember what I asked for and when. immediately the thoughts ran through my mind that I may have to wait for a while for these, and that I may not get everything I want. they brought with them a feeling of impending disappointment and struggle.

I pondered these thoughts for a moment. they were very familiar. but I asked ‘why would I have to wait? why is it I might not get what I ask? where do these thoughts come from?’ again, it became suddenly clear to me.

over the last too many years I have heard these very statements come from well meaning Christians, who want to shield me from disappointment, and govern me away from asking for those things I desire lest I ask for selfish reasons. but even beyond that, most seem to view the requests in the light of what I am able to get with my own efforts and resources. while it’s quite true that I might have to wait to acquire the job I want or the house I want, and I might not be able to get them on my own, it stands that I am not on my own. nor am I setting out to get these things in God’s name. I have asked One who is able, and willing, to get these things for me, according to His own word.

so, I put these thought to rest. put them in the ground, really. chased them out like flies in my house. its not that I am unwilling to wait. I have been waiting for several months now for the job. and like Lazarus, whom Jesus waited four days, until past the time that the Jews believed the soul hung around before departing for good, and then called him out of the tomb, so shall I come up out of this tomb of need and debt. and it will be plainly clear that it was the Blessing of the Lord that did it. but I will not have to wait until some undetermined time that no one knows, and I will not be disappointed with something less than I have asked. my God is able to do far about all I can think or ask.

wait and see. He will do it!

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30 years walking with God

what does it mean to be in covenant with someone? in this western culture, the idea of a covenant is vague. a blood covenant isnt really even part of western thought. but a covenant is a binding tie that unites two parties in a matter, with serious consequences for breaking it. if the covenant is cut in blood, its all the more binding. usually for life.

remember the 'blood brothers' or 'blood sisters' pacts we made as children? we would each prick a finger to get blood, and then press our fingers together to mingle that blood, and make pledges and promises that were intended at the time to last forever. or at least until the need for the pact no longer existed. they were very solemn and deep things, these pacts we made in this way. ever wonder where the idea came from?

consider most marriage ceremonies. there may not be blood in these modern days, but there is a meal, wine and cake, and the joining of names. families become joined, not just the two individuals. there are the pledges and promises, and the rings symbolising joining and eternity. where does the element of the meal come from?

in ancient days, God made covenant with man. He made a blood covenant with abram, with large animals cut in half, and all their blood poured out onto a path between their severed parts. blood covenants back then were made like this between two tribes - one skilled in warfare, the other strong in farming or agriculture or building. two representatives of both tribes were selected to walk the path of blood, and sware to each other an oath of faithfulness to the other, and pledge all their strengths, possesions, and resources to the other. there was a meal shared by both tribes, and often a joining of names. there was also a penalty, usually of death, to whoever broke the covenant. this whole concept was given to man by God, with Whom man walked early on, before we so conveniently drifted away. so it was that man understood the nature of a covenant. and when God brought abram out of chaldea, and promised him a son, and promied to make him the father of many nations, that He sealed the deal with a blood covenant.

there was one difference with the making of this covenant however. God put abram into a sleep, after he had gotten the animals, and cut them in half from head to tail (no small job that!), poured out their blood along the path between the parts, and sat waiting to see what God would do. then God walked the path between the parts, as a smoking furnace and a burning lamp. these two things passed between the parts, and God swore an oath to abram. this sealed the deal. abram had already believed the promise God had made that he would have an heir. but God sealed it with a blood oath, promising his son would come from his own loins, even though he was now 99 years old, and sarah was 90.

the promises that God made to abram that night concerned not only the child he would have, but the seed that would come from that line, who would be the Son of Man. the Word made Flesh. and the salvation that would become available to us through His death and resurrection - the new covenant in His blood. that salvation comes with way more than just deliverence from sin and entrance to heaven. it comes with protection from danger and enemies, healing, prosperity, and authority. in short, all of Gods resources were made available to whosoever would accept the gift of salvation and enter into covenant with Him. and its been sealed in blood.

i will testify that it is real. i have walked with God, through Jesus, for over thirty years now. i have never seen His word fail, or His promise break, in all that time. never.

thats whay i am, and always will be, a covenant woman.